I see a lot of other disabled creators push out content daily and sometimes I feel as if I'm not doing enough. This along with the way disability is measured, "rewarded" and scrutinized makes it sometimes difficult for me to be honest about my needs and how my disabilities affect me. 

I watched Heathers for the first time in 2018. Que Será, Será by Sly and the Family Stone played at the end of the film and really solidified my decision to kill myself. 

At some point people are going to show you whether they are able and willing to support you. They will show you whether they prioritize your needs. Thank you Mondo Vaden (He/They) for sharing your experiences and teaching us when to walk away!

You're walking in with all these firm boundaries that really aren't based in humanity or connection, and then you're saying that you know how things are going. The reality is there's a wealth of research, there's a wealth of scholarship, and I'm sure, we've both seen, in person, when folks call themselves neutral very often, they're the exact opposite of it.